| ITS TIME TO CELEBRATE~ |
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Welcome~
Things to do(last updated 20 MAR 2009):
Eyelashes for Aine
Pack room once again
Evacuate puki stuffs from one shelf-downsizing puki rooms
Move Ophelia in to her room
Get curtains for Ophelia's room
Make bed, lounge chair for kids
Buy white background for photoshoots
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| Merry meet and merry part... |
[31 Dec 2010|06:08am] |
Seeing that its the end of 2010, I think its a good time for me to address and come to terms with some things/relationships and finally bring a close to this journal.
December was the month we got together...
and also the month we said goodbye forever.
It took us 2 years to finally break free from our reliance for each other.
And I must say I was fucking embarrassed to have you tell me that you have already moved on first.
I hated you and I hated her.
I still think that she is no where near my caliber.
But what does it matter now that you still love her all the same?
(Ps. I dreamt of that even before it happened)
Looking back, I have always known that I would never love you the same again.
Your face still irks me sometimes... your childishness... your cowardice.
Yes you treated me like a princess but what I wanted wasn't really material things.
I needed security which I couldn't get from you.
But I didn't want you to move on because a selfish part of me knows that you would make a good husband and I didn't want you to be good to any one else.
And of course... because of THAT.
You were many of my Firsts.
In a way, I wanted to believe that you are mine forever.
I hate that you had rather throw what we had all away rather than fight to get back what you want.
You are a coward.
Even so, though I said that I don't want you to be happy, I can't care less now.
I didn't want things to turn out this way. But I am not a person who loves generously.
I will always love you but that love will only be a memory.
Today I went and looked back at your old livejounal.
I feel so numb clicking through the entries.
Each one reminding me of the good times we had and at the same time irking me as I know that all those have come to nothing now.
The impact you had on me is tremendous.
Both bad and good.
Like you, I wish we can stay together as friends
But I feel so much more free now that we are no longer in contact.
We were so reliant on each other to a point of it being stifling. I think it is time we just let go and grow on our own.
Thank you for the years we had together.
As for 5 other people who used(?) to be important to me.
I just don't know how to start.
As some of you know I just don't click with some characters.
I just couldn't deal with seeing them when my own life is in shambles.
But seeing that its a clique, I can't stop seeing one person without seeing the whole group.
Its not that I hate her. But some people do tend to say things which offend others without noticing it.
I feel so empty then and I needed time to retreat into myself.
I couldn't deal with meeting people.
I don't know if you're deliberately avoiding me now.
But just know that this wasn't what I wanted.
My jc days were bearable only because of you guys and I still think of you.
School is a bitch and the past couple of semesters were nightmares.
Nothing went as planned and everything went wrong.
I find myself more and more unsure of myself and my decisions.
Even now, I am unsure of my future. I feel like I am still an empty vessel.
There is no direction in life for me. I am just a drifter.
I wish I could drift all my life but time is running out.
I feel that with each semester I am being shoved out of the fantasy fairyland that I have worked so hard to build around myself.
I hate this.
I hate my life so much right now.
I wish things would change...
I want to change things...
And because we'd be welcoming in a new year, I have decided to officially stop posting on this livejournal and move on to tumblr .
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| LOL |
[05 Oct 2010|11:24am] |
I have come to realise that all Jonghyun fans with Jonghyun icons on omona are crazy bitches. :D
Poor boy...
Oh well moving to tumblr.
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| So... |
[26 May 2010|02:56am] |
I kinda came to a realisation that wheneever in a conversation, human being tend to wait for their turn to talk about themselves and just pretending to listen while they wait...
This is kinda like the reason why I kinda hate girls' night outs
People gotta learn that life isn't about them only.
Them in their pink princess lives, them feeling heart broken for the 1212325462534th time over a jerk who broke their heart AGAIN, them and their lust for their next Gucci or Prada bag.
These things, are for blogs...
Anyway~ good news~ Min, aka my macbook will be back tomorrow~
:D
Oh how I miss him so~...
He better be ready for some heavy d/l time coz he missed out alot on Suju Season.
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| Elf paint the world sapphire blue! |
[21 May 2010|01:55am] |
+1 Effort!
+1000000000000000000000000000000 Love!
Well you can kinda guess which is mine...
Well this vid shows me that there ARE nice elf out there...who are not children LOL
IF you have so much time, go get yourself another Bonamana album or go do some trial listening... instead of coming to terrorize other's livejournals.
If I see one, I'd delete one.
So don't waste your time child.
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| My Beauties... |
[07 May 2010|10:53am] |
I so can't wait anymore this is so much love.ARHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
Sounds like something from the Linkin Park Hybrid Theory era.
My life is almost complete...
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| FIGHTING! |
[21 Apr 2010|07:05pm] |
I'm really hating life at adm.
Most fucked up school ever really.
All the glamour and glitz you see are all a facade.
Ah so much shit for that one fucking piece of paper which won't get me anywhere far either.
Oh well.. just wanna get over this shit and then enjoy the 4 집.
4 집 대박!
Hyuk Jae Oppa here makes me happy <3
FIGHTING!
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| So... what have I been doing... |
[13 Apr 2010|01:23am] |
Haven't updated in AGES.
This place is filled with cobwebs..
Been busy with... things?
I don't know I can't really say that I was really doing school work yet school is keeping me busy...
Spent more time procrastinating and fangirling actually...
And actually FORGETTING a couple of birthdays.
Really I should be shot...
I am actually the worst friend you can have during school term.
Best thing that happened to me all this while?
I went for Super Show 2 in Malaysia!
Awesome sauce.
Saw Sungmin <3
Michelle's parents were super awesome to take us there!
I'd say the boys were real happy with what the fans did for them :D
We created a starry starry night sky for them during Shining Star...
WAAAAAAAYYYYY better than those pinoy fans who threw condoms and thongs and what not on the stage...
Cheap sluts...
Got my character tees there too :D
They set a limit of 2 tees per person...
HEH so any idiot from sj-world can just shut up now.
Of Fangirls And Bitches/
Anyway, the mosh pit was fucking crazy...
There were so many points in time there when I just wish every one there except ourselves would just die.
Seriously... who ever said going to concerts is about feeling the closeness of other fans supporting the same people with you... that's just bullfuck. I just wish they'd all die...
Selfish little bitches.
Anyway... the people with the blue wigs at the front were fucking irritating.
So this girl was totally pushing her butt out at my sis and I was like
"If she does it one more time Imma rip off that wig and throw it"
And you all know...when I am feeling bitchy I'd really do just that.
So she butted my sis again...
and off her wig flew...
Too bad only the fugly ribbon flew away...and she managed to get her wig back...
But she wasn't so lucky the 3rd time she butted... ME
So off her wig flew 2 metres away.
LOL.
I just love myself.
I really hate ELF other than me and my friends.
Stupid little girls.
4 JIB DAEBAK!!!!!
I know that boybands don't last forever...
But whilst my boys are still around I'm gonna <3
I don't know... sucks to be a fan at this age.
But homg I do love Sungmin.
He is the idea of my PERFECT MAN.
But then again, this is life and you will always have to make compromises... coz your perfect man will never be yours.
Of Forgetfulness and Parties
Damn I really have to apologize to the Bitch Club for not being there.
I just forgot... =.=
But anyway it's not like you guys came to find me on my b'day so...
'Ne ways, feeling kinda hermit-ty now.
Haven't gone anywhere with anyone except Clayder for a couple of movies and Prav today.
Can't wait for exams to be over and submissions to be completed... then I can get my life back...
Of babies and kids
Fayette's finally back from Shanghai.
Adorable as ever.
I am actually glad that I have nothing more to wait for in the mail.
I hope this will last at least til I get a job in May.
Kinda happy with my doll-family now except that I still want a PKF Zoe.
Hoping to sell some floatings first.
I traded with d_a for Shunko which I named Byul after Sungmin's motor cycle.
Means Star. Happy with my kids now~
Speaking of kids..
I'm currently crazy over Mason Moon.
Super adorable!
People should give birth to more of such kids.
^_^
Free time? What free time?
So what do I do when I am holed up at home coz I spent all my monies on the Super Show 2 concert tix and tees and dolls...
Sit at home and go on youtube marathons.
Been following Michelle Phan, Jkimisyellow and Glowpinkstah.
Aha. Helps that I got my Alice in Wonderland make up palette from Urban Decay :D
I got it as a B'day gift to myself.
Lookin' like a dork.
Many colours to play with while trying to follow some Michelle Phan tutorial LOL
Hey it's free entertainment =.= Well at the initial cost of $88 for the palette but still......
Beats going out and talking about useless things anyway.
Yep so that's what's going on in my life now.
I'm turning into a kpop+doll otaku...
Shisus save me!
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| LOL |
[26 Jan 2010|12:36am] |
So it's the 3rd week of school already..
And I am still like "lolllllll i can't seem to do homework"
there's only two classes i actually go YAY! about
1. Korean
2. History of Animation
... and neither is my core..
Epic fail.
Nothing interesting in school except for bad hairdos, ridiculous amounts of furniture(actually furniture are useful.. those are... i don't know what... just useless lumps of THINGS hanging around), suck ups and fail fashion.
Its kinda funny actually... coz there is nothing to do but laugh at their failness.
Pray let me have my SS2 tix in my hands so i know for sure where i am going on march 19/20th...take me somewhere far from all the fail here.
I have no time for my kids T_T...
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| Because I'm an E.L.F. |
[22 Jan 2010|09:26am] |
HOMG i came to a realization that day when this friend asked me what I have been up to(aka any scandals) that...
I HAVE NOTHING TO SHARE!!!
Lol.
Sorry sorry to disappoint..
Unless you wanna know what I am thinking when I saw this:
Uber cuteeeeeeeeeeee~
I'm abit too old for this but... arhhhh heck care lar... Its not like Singapore has anything to offer when it comes to guys...
So...I spend about every minute that i am awake..erm... looking at sungmin's pics ahaha
and thus this is my essay on why i love sungmin so much...
He can cook... deok bokki...
(and look so cute in the apron..ruifan, pls ask ur man to keep away from my deokbokki)
Likes to take photos~(guys look damn hot when they look so serious behind the camera - note: not found in singapore)
Musically inclined... with emo hair to boot
Intensity in the eyes....
Amazing ability to still look so cute and innocent when he is doing something like this...
Lee Sungmin... is officially the most perfect guy i ever saw in the whole of my almost 22 yr life...
AND YOU KNOW WHAT THEY BETTER HELP ME BUY AND GET THOSE SUPER SHOW 2 IN KL TIX SO THAT I CAN SEE THE MOST PERFECT GUY IN THE WORLD IRL IF NOT I WILL NOT DIE HAPPY.
My own mini - min
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| SEOUL~ HOT~ |
[13 Dec 2009|12:39am] |
Day 1
First things i bought in SEOUL~
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| LOVE |
[08 Dec 2009|01:21pm] |
AHAHAHAHA
HUANG TAE KYUNG PHAIL!!!!!
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| OMO!!! |
[14 Nov 2009|07:57pm] |
I WANT~!!!!
but how to justify $30 usd for it D=
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| Hi Fayette! |
[14 Nov 2009|01:49am] |
She's finally here!
I was getting all angsty in my wait for her!
So she went...
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